Learning to fly again

Your Dominant Thinking Style: Visioning

You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights. You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details. An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path. You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

I've decided to start taking my transition more seriously. I have been neglecting my duties to myself over the last few months and that needs to stop. Like now. Honestly it kinda scares me to take anything seriously... I'm not used to it. I have an endo appointment tomorrow, and Ruka is taking me. There's something about him that makes me brave. I'm going to get up around 8 to start getting ready. The appointment is at 11:45. 2 and a half ot three hours should give me enough time. I have decided that I am going to make him eat his words about me not living in my role. I'm still debating about wearing a fucking skirt and heels. Likely it will be khakis and heels, though. I'm going to wear something low cut, though. Want pics? ;) All that said, I'm terrified. However, I decided that this year I will conquer my fears. So I am going to do it. They seem to want a stereotypical woman... I can do that if it gets me what I want.

I made Ally PROMISE me that we will start putting money away for laser/electro, soon. I need it. my facial hair (and my hairline) are the reminders I hate most about my body. My hair is growing back at a decent rate now, Saturday I was able to look in a mirror and not cringe. Yay for me.

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You've gotta kick at the darkness till it bleeds daylight...

Chloeheim needs you!

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Pandora.com is amazing. :)

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"You are only bored when you are boring."

Discuss.

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Money came in. Bills are paid. Power will be back on today sometime. Birthday is saved. Life is good today.

I am stuck at work. I have no way home tonight. I guess I'll keep trying...

EDIT: Praise be to Timewarp!

of Richmond, that is. Those of you who know me in person, know I despise this city, and I want to go somewhere I feel more at home. Preferably in a civilized state where transfolk have some rights. No, nothing has happened to spur this train of thought. Honestly, it's just something that is always in the back of my mind. Virginia is not and never shall be, home. The only thing I would miss if we were to leave is the network of friends I have found here. I can always visit. My parents are moving to a state with (albeit new) decent laws regarding the rights of transfolk. I want to live closer to my parents... but I'm not sure I'd want to live in New Jersey... Ugh.


Anyway, this brings my to a reader participation question.

What (and where) is home? (Meaning, of course, what defines home to you?) This is a question that has burned in my heart for as long as I can remember. I'm closer to finding it than ever, but not quite yet...

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070926/ap_on_fe_st/bra_heist;_ylt=AiFnev7rdV_0L.jAEQCGC74uQE4F

Chloe

"I don't suffer from insanity... I enjoy every minute of it..."

'What is your personal life motto?' at QuizGalaxy.com

I feel odd, today. It's difficult to describe, honestly. Detatched, maybe? It's kind of like today isn't real, more like a really boring dream. No not detatched, because I still care about what happens. I wonder what this means...

Anyhow, we are broke, like scary broke. The weird thing is, I'm not worried. I know we will be ok. Somehow, Poooka and I are always ok. Maybe not great, but ok. It's kind of comforting. Maybe I've developed that faith thing Poooka's always talking about.

Anyway, I seem to have a great love for the universe, today, and I want to express it. Love to all of you.

Ok my boobs really hurt today... That's I had to say...

Life is hard
And so am I
You'd better give me something
So I don't die
Novocaine for the soul
Before I sputter out
Before I sputter out

Life is white
And I am black
Jesus and his lawyer
Are coming back
Oh my darling
Will you be here
Before I sputter out
Before I sputter out
Before I sputter out

Guess who's living here with the great undead
This paint by numbers life is f***ing with my head, once again

Life is good
And I feel great
Cuz mother says I was
A great mistake
Novocaine for the soul
You'd better give me something to fill the hole
Before I sputter out
Before I sputter out
Before I sputter out
Before I sputter out

Beware the tea I made. It has addictive qualities....

:)

http://asheville.indymedia.org/article/107Clowns

I'm terza rima, and I talk and smile. Where others lock their rhymes and thoughts away I let mine out, and chatter all the while. I'm rarely on my own - a wasted day Is any day that's spent without a friend, With nothing much to do or hear or say. I like to be with people, and depend On company for being entertained; Which seems a good solution, in the end. What Poetry Form Are You?